well , at tis point of time i doubt any1 would even browse through tis blog since it has been dead long long time ago . oh well , in anycase tis would be the last post for tis blog anw ....

sry and sad to say but tis blog will be announce dead with immediate effect (unofficially dead long ago) , and another impt matter is the owner of tis blog is DEAD, i am jus helping the owner of tis blog to post it as his request ...

Hope he will R.I.P tgt with tis blog announcing dead ................

well it may seems useless to post it since i doubt any1 would passby and see tis post and know tt the user is dead , but as owner's request will still post it anw ..........................................

~DeadOut~
~R.I.P Out~

Exam is over quite some time , bt still does'tn seems to be very happy abt it .....

almost everyday work and came back home at ard 12.30am and play dota with frens til 3am plus .....

recently started to go swimming and play basketball all alone , feeling alright , but still don feel gd ....

working long day is gd , can keep me busy , playing ALMOST EVERYDAY with fren til 3am plus is nt gd for health bt somehow i like it , i jus dunno y ....

when working or playing at midnight , it makes me feel tt i am still being regonise by ppl ard me ....

ZZZZZZzzzzzzZzzZz i feel so emo and lifeless whenever i am NEITHER working NOR playing with frens ... i ... i duno wad and how to explain , i will jus feel like a nobody , a person tt is not even exist and ppl will nt notice me ....

SUCKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...............................................................................................................................................

~DepressionOut~
~OverExhaustOut~

tml will be the last paper alr , but somehow i don feel cheerful neither i feel sad nor worried , i jus feel emotionless ...... thats all ....

NTH MORE ...... NTH LESS .... JUS EMOTIONLESS ...... LIKE A LIVING ZOMBIE ......

NO DIFF THAN A DEAD PERSON .....

i don mind to tell any1 tt i will nt be studying for tmr paper , even if i study now it wount get into the head so wats the point ?? i don mind to jus say out tt i will jus liten to music , play psp , use com for the rest of the nite today ....

at most tmr go sch earlier to 'ling shi bao fuo jiao' to read and hope most tt i study tmr morning will come out ... i jus cant study now .... forget it .....

~EmotionlessOut~
~ExamOut~

Haiz ..... Hate Emo , Bt started to gt used to Emoing .... sometimes even likes to gt emo (crazy am i huh???) .

Exams is coming up , and u know wat ?? i kana the debar letter lo , cuz of wat ?? attandance poor , seriously quite poor since these few mnths , i jus tend to slack it off , slack at home , rot at home , emo at home ... No moltivation to go on ...

Exam is REALLY and i am SERIOUS its very close , i wanna study hard , i wanna go poly but ..................... i jus cant find a single slightest moltivation to push me .... due to tis , i quite often nvr go sch etc etc , bt i still can catch up with the rest ...

NO MOLTIVATIONS !!!!!!!!!! F*** AND EXAMS IS SO DAMN IT NEAR !!!!!!! S**T ...

TO BE FRANK ITS BEEN SO LONG TT I AM REALLY SCARED AND WORRY FOR MY EXAMS AND TIS IS NOT GOOD AT ALL !!!!!!!!!!! I STILL CANT FIND ANY MOLTIVATION !!!!!!!!

sry tt i have been announcing to change blog but haven cuz i lazy to do it still , partly due to emo ? and no moltivation also ??

Well i jus need to force myself bt i tried .... it fail .... plz plz , don let me sink even deeper .... its going end of tis year and plz stop torturing me ever since start of tis year ... its jus hellish so many things happen tis year ... i jus wish tt ending of tis year can let me have some peace .... 'wish is nt enough, need to prove it with my own' tt logic i know , bt i am jus been so down ...............

~ExamOut~
~EmoOut~(when can i stop using tis)
~NoMoltivationOut~(when can i stop using tis also)

YES !!! hahahahaha, my sister's baby princess have step into tis world le !!! her first cry , her first breathing of air ! hahahaha i JUS receive the newz from my 'jie fu' at hospital ... lol !!! WEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee .... lol . later going to visit her with my family ^^ right now go makan breakfast first than go see her .

I WANNA SEE THE BABY ASAP !!! CUZ I AM OFFICIALLY PROMOTE TO 'jiu jiu'(Uncle) rank liao from own family , and my parents officially promote to 'Ah Ma & Ah Gong' rank liao ... hahahahaha lame me , promote here and there , lol !! k la , gtg makan and faster see my sis's princess le ..

~PeaceOut~
~BabyOut~
~PrincessOut~
~'jiu jiu'Out~

Love is unpredictable , it can come at the least expected moments of yr life bt it can also go at the most unexpected moments . Thanks bros , without yr ard i really dunno where am i alr ... its foolish bt i did think of it b4 (should know wats tt)

it really sucks , it really hurts bt i gona do tis no matter wat , mayb tis is the best thing i can think of . I have decided to change tis blog alr , its my final decision and i will nt tell her my new blog , it really hurts bt i have no choice ...

it hurts nt cuz of break (well partly) , bt it hurts cuz of wat i have done is nt enough to make her parent accept me ?? (although i think i have done nth bt waited for tt yrs is nt enough?) it hurts of y they don accept me , it hurts y he is immediately accepted to her family , it hurts tt i haven pick up myself from it let along thinking of going for another relationship and she is alr in sum1's hugs alr ???? WTF ???? I am nt saying she cant go for another since we alr break bt wtf ??? is our relationship so thin tt she can forget it fast and went for another ?? EVEN if she cant forget abt our past tgt bt she can go for another so fast ??? WTF ??

Its alr mid Oct and I still feel very very very vex on everything. anything and everything ....

forget it , i don wanna cont tis post , since she is alr in sum1's heart alr , no point to cont to say out my feelings , it sucks , it hurts , bt its best nt to disturb her anymore , neither contact nor msg with her is best to prevent me and her from being hurt to think back again .....

There is always a sentance tt says "yr cant be frens after breakup" and i know why they say so , whenever they try to contact each other as frens after break , it will flash back those past ...............

To people tt have links with her: DON EVER COME AND LECTURE ME ABT WAT I SAY IN TIS POST , IF REALLY WANNA COME LECTURE ME THAN MIGHT AS WELL JUS DON CONTACT ME AND END OUR FRENSHIP !!!

To her if she happens to see it (i hope nt cuz it will be less emo and more happy for her if she nvr reads it , bt if she really read tis post-->) have a wonderful relationship with yr bf and with yr life ...................................... i wish yr both tgt forever , sort things out tgt and overcome all obstacle ..............................................

In any case , i decided to end tis blog and cr8 another new 1 asap when i have the time since tmr sch re-open (don think i gt the mood to study in tis situation , i jus don feel like doing anything).

NOTICE: TIS BLOG IS PURELY WAT I THINK AND FEEL RIGHT NOW , TIS IS MY BLOG , A PLACE TO WRITE OUT MY FEELINGS , IF ANY1 WANNA COME LECT ME , LETS JUS BREAK OUR FRENSHIP TO EASE EACH OTHER FROM QUARRELL SINCE WE HAVE DIFF THINKING TT U (TT PERSON TT ALWAYS THINK HE KNOWS EVERYTHING AND LIKES INTERFERE WITH OTHERS PROB WHICH I HATE THOSE PEOPLE TT TRYING TO ACT SMART INFRONT OF ME ABT MY PROB) WANNA LECT ME ABT WAT I SAY .

TIS IS JUS A POST , A PASSBY OF MY LIFE , MY SADNESS , MY REGRETS , MY THOUGHTS .......................................................

~Life Sucks .................................. Out~

Well, everything is bak to normal, nth much happen.

went sch in the morning to rush my project which today is the submission, manage to complete it nicely , after tt went work lo at 5. was doing atruim and due its weekdays so there is kinda few customer for me to promote the hari raya cookies ^^ And there was a malay guy with his wife and 2 kids came and look ard the cookies , so i entertain them and he really have sense of humour and really joke alot with me , well i kinda must thanks him for really making my day happy!!!

Here's the conclusion i decided to make once everything starts to settle down peacefully , first is i will change a new blog (partly is tis blog is nt nice and it has jus way too many unhappiness inside). Change and settle down my personallity and start to go out play sports and be cheerful back and keep going out so tt i wount keep shutting myself up at home and keep anyhow thinking which is BAD !!!

And last but nt least, i kinda starts to have the mood in doing alot of things and sports etc etc !!

~PeaceOut~ (wonder how long i use tis 'PeaceOut' alr to show tat i am normal or happy mood)